Meditation Day 18 – 0
Day 27
I wake up rested and at peace. It feels like home.
Five year Hayul asks,”Imo, where is your mom?”
“I don’t have a mom.”
My aunt, feeling bad, chimes, “I also don’t have a mom. You should be good to your mom? Your aunt and your grandmother don’t have moms!”
Aunt mentions again. “I think you should have a kid even if you don’t find a partner. If you have a baby, I will help you look after it.”
“What? You said you wouldn’t do that for me and I’m your daughter.”
“Your kids are all grown now. Your nieces and nephews, they don’t matter. When you get old, you can only lean on your kids. You are independent now, but you’ll get old too.”
“You’re right”, I tell her. “I’m worried. These days there is constant restructure.”
After eating more food (strawberries, chocolate and Korean yellow melon) my body doesn’t have space for, I get ready to leave.
The drive to my next destination is 1 hour and 44 minutes, going against traffic. Public transportation would have taken 4 hours. Driving down, with one more hour to go, I stop at the service station to catch up on yesterday’s love letter and do today’s.
Korean rest stop is an experience in itself. Massive bathroom to minimize wait times. At least 40 different food places to choose from. Clean interior with enough tables to sit inside and outside. Drinking iced cafe latte from A Twosome Coffee, I click on my laptop, describing what I see. Ordering is done at kiosks with credit cards. No exchange of conversation. No exchange of cash.
Beat signature robot can make you coffee in seconds without any human intervention. Soon, workers in Korea will be replaced by robots. Not enough people, and the people don’t want to do these jobs anymore.
I am grateful for the time I have with my two aunts. The only two people from whom I feel genuine love and care. Saying things and doing things for what is best for me, not wanting anything from me. Except my own happiness and good life. Feeling bad for me and my siblings for having lost our mom early. Losing our dad earlier than every one of our cousins.
Thank you for caring and continuing to showering with us love. I am eternally grateful.
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